Dream or Reality?

Drive to Santa Cruz non-stop, walked hand in hand with my loved one down a beach of fine white sand that flows between your toes like that in an hourglass, dinner at the best restaurant on the pier while still in our beachwear and then dancing until the late hours of the night.  Not a grunt, not a groan, no stretching, bending,  twisting (except on the dance floor).  Then Tai Chi / Joga stretching with the sunrise on the beach wonderful early morning coffee watching the fog burn of the surface of the water.  Shopping in the quaint little town just up the road where the boys come back with a new story of monster waves from nowhere then we drive home again. No Pain for once in 20 years, 2 months 25 days. 3.65 minutes.  Then it hits me, I wake up its all a dream.

      Pain, level 9 from laying down all night, Fitbit say I was restless 29 time and awake 12 (means out of bed), stiff and can barely roll over onto my side and when I make it my pain has leaped the 10 hurdle into new realms.  Need to bend my knees to chest and having a hard time with it, make it 1/2 way and the pain feels like someones pulling my spine out my, ask me why i’m awake so much and I’ll tell this is why.  Finally make it, knees to chest, done now sit up another feat of wonder but I make it.  Sweat beading up on forehead, pain now running from 2/3 up my spine down into my right leg and was able to get it down to an 7-8.  Luckily I have yet to wake the dogs who now command more than their 1/3 of the bed.  I feel like a country being run over in the night when I have to get up and stretch the dogs roll into positions to take over what once was mine.  There is no negotiating with them in trying to get it back, so I ensure I have enough to lay as straight as possible even if that means crossing paws with the enemy.  In the middle of the night the pain is so intense or has sent a shooting jolt of pain down my spine or my leg or both and like a major charlie horse I am up out of bed usually with a tennis ball and the nearest wall.  

     OK, this is the tenth time tonight I’ve been up, lets see if I can push the dogs around enough to find my little island of bed with that white sand beach, to climb back in and fall asleep into that dream land with my loved one hand in hand. Oh yea, No Pain .

Tux Love

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